Monday, November 20, 2006

Obsession

I’ve been listening to Nina’s Live album for these past few days. I don’t know why but there is one song that I keep playing over and over and over again—“I love you Goodbye” This is a post-break-up song, which doesn’t really reveal the current state of my heart right now. Haha!

Somehow the songs that you’re listening to reflect what you are currently feeling or the mood you are in. Does my newfound penchant for this song mean that I’m contemplating on a change of heart? (Ponders on it for a split second and dismisses the thought… hehe!)

I’m not heartbroken or anything but the lyrics of the song “I love you Goodbye” really hit a soft spot inside me. It’s as if it’s saying exactly what’s on my mind right now :

” I wish someday you can, find some way to understand, I’m only doing this for you…I don’t really want to go but deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do..”

"Oh i don't wan t to leave you , baby it tears me up inside, but i'll never be the one you're needing, i lov you goodbye...."

It is because I am leaving for home in a few days and I will be leaving the life that I have grown to love. I will be leaving this place where I found love so true and so sincere. I don’t really want to leave, but circumstances lead me to choose between staying and leaving. And this, I hope he’ll understand.

But there's one thing i'm sure of, i shall return...and when i do, i'm going to make things work out the way it should.

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Charmed

Over bottles of C2 and a bag of chips, I spent a 2-day DVD-thon watching 4 seasons of The Charmed Ones series. I realized how much I missed watching this series. I miss Prue so much. She’s my favourite of the trio coz she’s got guts and beauty… but I also noticed that she’s the only one in the group who seems to be prone to attacks from the strange kind. I was kinda disappointed when she “died” at the end of the 3rd (or 4th? I’m not sure) season. Oh bummer, it really took me so long to get used to having Paige around. Something’s just off about Paige you know, she’s too damn white (almost Michael Jackson-esque kind of white). Ok, maybe I was just sore because Prue got killed off. Bummer!

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Guys! Please pray for my safe journey! I love you all....



Friday, November 03, 2006
Updates…

Well, it’s been a long week and the much-coveted sem-break turned out to be such a bitch! Well, to start off, my computer bogged down after a month of using the crystalxp bricopack
software. I can’t even recover my files, pictures and videos. I had to reformat my pc and here I am, stuck in a cheap internet café. Oh well, this is life. It’s just a shame all my pics (and “our” pics) were lost. You guys cannot imagine the hell I’ve been thru! I thought my computer was even plagued with a virus!

Lesson learned? :

Never download free unlicensed software from the net! I don't know if anyone else experienced the same thing i've been thru. But the guy repairing my pc said it was a spyware whice corrupted the operating system of my PC. When it came down to recovery of files....zilch! nada! nada! I felt like crying so hard after that. All my important files gone down the drain. Even my french lessons were gone! oh well, that's life.

moving on...

Hollywood is so fickle


On monday, it was reported that Reese Witherspoon and her husband Ryan Phillippe have separated. Hmmm...so another one bites the dust. So many celebrity couples have split since last year. It has now made me conclude that it is indeed fickle in Hollywood. Nothin lasts in tinseltown. I wonder why is that? I'd not worry about relationships like boyfriend-girlfriend going down the drains. But once you talk about marriage, I guess all the odds are against you. You have to fight to save the marriage no matter how much trouble you and your partner are going through. I mean didn't you promise to love each other for better and for worse? So, how come once the problems come pouring in, the divorce paper becomes the sole option? It just pains me to see couples fall out of love. Maybe because it is the realization that nothing lasts forever in this world--even love.



Because I’m a Girl

I cried buckets and buckets of tears last night because of this Korean music video by the all-girl band KISS. Well, I didn’t understand a thing about their song (although I searched for its English translation out of sheer curiosity) but the video was really heart-wrenching. I couldn’t help but cry my heart out especially the last part. I think i'm obsessed.



I wish the guy didn't leave the girl after giving his eyes...If this happened to me, i would really go out of my way to look for him again. I mean does the guy think that the girl will love him less because he's blind? I mean if it is true love, physical blindness doesn't matter...it's the heart that really sees right? Haaaaiii...i'm just really affected by this. But i gotta give it to them these Koreans, they really know how to break my heart! huhuhuhu! i'm sorry, I'm just a self-confessed helpless romantic. And i always want happy endings...guess that's just too surreal huh?





Monday, October 23, 2006

eetI saw her crying again in that deserted room. Putrid smell of rat piss and roach shit hung thick in the air. It was dark but a small portable lamp provided little light in the room. Old furniture, torn up pages of books, magazines and newspapers scattered everywhere. There she was, sitting on a green broken down sofa. Her head hung low as she hugged herself. I could see a trickle of tears down her arms. She had been crying.

Slowly I walked towards her. I eased my way into the dark of the room, desperately trying to avoid stepping on anything foreign. She must’ve heard me coming, she looked up.

“What are you doing here?” she asked, blinking away tears, trying to sound casual as she could.

“You’ve been crying” I said. I looked straight to her brown eyes, wet with pear-shaped tears that seem to flow endlessly from her eyes.

“So what?” she snapped back. “What do you care?”

I stared at her, pretending not to hear a word she said. I plopped down beside her.

“Hmm…this is quite comfy, no wonder you like it here, but don’t you mind the smell? I asked her, trying to stir up a conversation.

Silence. More silence. It becomes deafening.

“So, tell me, why have you been crying?” I asked her after 30 minutes or so of silence.

“I wasn’t crying” was her feeble retort. She refused to look me straight in the eye. So typical of her.

“Oh come on, Tanya, do you think you could lie to me?” I asked her in a mocking tone.

“You can lie to them all, you can pretend to be happy in front of them, but you know you can never hide what you feel to me.”

With this, she looked up at me, straight in my eyes. I could feel her pain, she’s hurting inside. Then she broke into a sob. I took her in my arms. She was still crying hard. It breaks my heart to see her like this, but I know she must learn to stand up for her self.

“Everything’s gonna be alright darling” I told her, holding her tight in my arms.

“ Nothing’s gonna be alright!” she bellowed out. “Nothing!”

“Don’t be silly, there’s nothing that we haven’t worked out together right? Now be a doll and do tell me what’s bothering you.” I told her affectionately as I always do everytime she is in such a state like this.

“It’s Edward” she said.

With those very words, I knew right away what was bothering her. Edward. The man of her life. The man who gave her the chance to discover emotions she’d never felt before. And the man who is the reason why she always have to be in this kind of state.

“What’s he done now?” I asked, trying to sound as neutral as possible.

“Nothing!, that’s just it! He’s done nothing!” she cried some more

My poor little darling

“I mean, everything’s changed now, he isn’t like what he used to be you know.” She told me as she cried out, her voice shaky as she narrated it to me.

I know the story behind it all too well. She was in love, madly in love—they both are. But what with just one argument, everything seemed to have changed. He became a little cold. Rarely even taking time to ask her how she is, or if she ate her dinner or all those other silly things lovers do talk about. Yes, I know it’s a bit foolish of her to worry about things like those, but she is different. She craves for attention; she is delighted with those simple gestures of affection given to her. She finds it ok if a guy would be busy with work, but never without having time for her.

“He’s gone cold, like ice”

I guessed he would

“He’s not as sweet as he used to be, he never cares as much as before” more cries

“But darling,” I said “maybe he’s just busy, you must understand him, he’s quite a busy man.” I told her consolably.

“I feel so left alone, I feel deserted, like I don‘t matter to him anymore!” she cried out so loud.

“Now, now, stop making yourself feel so bad”

“ I feel like I just want to disappear, but I know that he won’t notice it anyway..” her voice trailed off..

“Maybe he won’t notice it when I’m gone…” she added.

“Nonsense, darling! You speak of such silly nonsense!” I said, somewhat baffled by the way she’s been thinking lately.

“It hurts Lisa, it really does, because no matter what, I still love him” she looked at me hoping to get an affirmation that I understand her.

I nodded at her.

“I love him… is that so hard to understand? Oh gosh! This just sucks!” she yelled furiously.

She got up from the sofa, started pacing back and forth the room and yelled all over and over again. I knew one day she’d really explode like this. She’s quite a fragile creature you know. She grew up that way. Never asking too many questions, never doubting people, she trusts too much of everyone. That’s just her problem—she trusts too much and loves too much.

“Now darling, remember this: allow your intuition to save you from heartache.” I quoted Oprah.

She turned around and looked at me, giggled a bit and said “You’ve been reading too much of Oprah”.

“Oh yes, I have, but you see what she’s been saying is useful and true”. I told her as a matter-of-factly.

She walked towards me, took my hand and held it tight.

“Lisa, you’re the bestest, best friend a girl could ever have. You listen to me”.

“Well, why don’t you try talking to him out of it and maybe he’ll listen?” I asked her.

“Oh, I can’t simply just do that, you see, if I do, we’ll argue again and it’s all going to be my fault. I need not to bother him with my childish thoughts.” She said sadly, hanging her head low again to avoid being seen crying.

“Oh darling, stop crying…you’ve been crying for hours now” I said somewhat concerned for her. Her eyes are already puffy and swollen-red from crying.

She stared at me lips forming into a smile “Didn’t you tell me that it’s alright to cry? That I should let go of my emotions?”

I was caught off-guarded at her retort, but I told her instead “Yes I did say that, but darling remember your heart isn’t as strong as you think it is” I smiled her a knowing smile.

Her heart is weak. That is a known fact. She has a very weak heart, which wallowing in too much pain would really be alarming to anyone in her family. She had almost died before because of a mild heart attack.

“Yes, it is weak Lisa, but I’m trying to strengthen it.” She said.

Stupid, stupid, stupid. Only now do I realize what the quote: “there is a drop of madness in love...but there is a drop of reason in every madness” really means. She has gone mad.

“Darling, be a doll and stop this madness at once” I told her in a gentle but firm manner—somewhat like pleading actually.

“Lisa, I do love him so much…it’s just that why can’t he be the same as before?” tears welled up in her eyes


”Why did he have to be so cold? Why did he have to change? Do I not matter anymore? I feel as if I’m there yet not there at all…do you get me?” She asked almost feverishly.

I could only nod in agreement.

“Lisa, I want to leave for somewhere….to forget things for now, to have a change of environment, everything’s becoming so unhealthy for me lately” she confessed.

This has got to be the best decisions she ever thought of for this past few hours. I must agree with her, everything has been so unhealthy for her. She’s grown thin and emaciated these days. Gone are the laughter in her eyes. Gone are the smiles that used to captivate us in awe. Gone was the girl who I used to know. In her place was this thin, pale and sorry-looking girl. She still has those beautiful eyes though, round brown eyes surrounded by thick dark curly lashes.

“Darling, that’s such a wonderful idea of yours!” I exclaimed happily. “You deserve a break from all this!” I cheerily added. I rushed to her side and took her hand.

“This is your chance to think things over, stop feeling sorry for yourself, stop crying, learn to smile…be a doll and do these” and I hugged her.

She cried, but this time, I knew those were tears of happiness.

“Lisa, thank you so much” and she sobbed some more.

The putrid smell of the room didn’t seem to bother me more then…

-end-



**** 0k...i know this is a lame attempt in writing a story..haha! but at least you could give me A for an effort! :P hope u guys like it... :P

addendum:

i love you so much...words are not enough to express the joy that i feel for having you...i love you so much...grabe..i could go on and on saying this! i am ready and willing to share the rest of my life with you..we still have a long way to go...the journey ahead won't be easy, the road will be full of obstacles...but know this...my heart will always be with you...i love you..!!! haaai.....grabe na to!

(sorry folks..i just can't contain my self..hahah! an outpour of emotions just drive me to do things beyond other people's understanding..haha! but just bear with me..i'm just another silly woman in love.. *wink!*)



Monday, October 16, 2006

I’m so SICK!!!!!

Oh yeah, really sick… I woke up yesterday screaming in pain just because some stupid “wisdom tooth” decided to grow on my right molar! Leche! The pain is really excruciating! And added to that, I also developed sore-eyes! Now, I’m a sore-eyed, swollen-gummed bitch! I think I’m dying! How worse can it get? The sore eye I can handle…but this wisdom tooth thing I certainly can’t!!! Unless of course it will help me boost my grades this coming finals! So uh, what the hell is a wisdom tooth really? Can it make me any wiser than I should be?

And oh! Finals are coming up this week! I’m really excited!! Not for the exams mind you, but for the upcoming sem break! Yay! I can finally get that dreaded vacation I so so wanted!

Right...so, this week I guess I need a miracle: To do well in my finals and get fucking good grades. Just that and I’ll be a happy person for the rest of the vacation!! Hahaha!

So what’s new? Hmmm..nothing much, it’s still so hot these days, although we’re already halfway in the ber months. And I think our teachers are trying to drive us into insanity by assigning hundreds of pages of reports and a 1 hour documentary on some dead person. Haaaiii… the life of a student..heheh! :P

I got this meme while i was bloghopping, alas i forgot the blogsite where i found this! LOL! anyway here it is:


1.) Single, Taken, or Crushin?
>>taken

2) Are you happy with where you are?
>> yes...and why wouldn't i be?

3) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast?
>> no...the ones i fell in love fast weren't the
right ones..or maybe i wasn't the right one..who knows?

4) Have you ever had your heart broken?
>> yes...everyone has had their own share of tearjerking stories to tell about a lost love..sigh...

5) Do you believe that there are certain
circumstances where cheating is ok?
>> no...i have never been the type to approve of
cheating..cheating is cheating...there is never an acceptable excuse for that....

6.) Would you ever take back a cheater?
>> NO....if he cheated on me once, he can cheat on me again....i hate cheaters... grrrr...

7) Have you talked about marriage with another person?
>> yes... :) and it's such a wonderful feeling how you are able to plan about things like that with someone..as if you're slowly building your future together with this person...

8) Do you want children?
>> yes..not now..but maybe in the near future... *wink!*

9) How many?
>> 2 or 3 will do...

10) Would you consider adoption?
>> maybe..i have been thinking about that for ages u know...i fear of becoming a mother because i might end up looking so fat and ugly after childbirth... :( but if i adopt..i'm safe..haha! but still, it's much better if u have a child of your own right? hmmm...i think adoption is still an option however....hmmmm....

11) If somebody liked you right now, what do you think is a cool way to let you know?
>> hmmmm....through a song or a poem maybe...that'd be sweet.. :)

12) Do you enjoy playing hard to get?
>>yes..i am hard to get... :P

13) Do you believe love at first sight exists?
>> no...i think there is no such thing as a love at first sight..maybe attraction at first sight..but love? love is too deep to divulge in with just first glance...

14)Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
>>yes! hahaha...and it's more important if guys can get the date right! hahahah!

15) Do you believe that you can change someone?
>> maybe...i don't know...

16) If u could get married anywhere, where would it be (money's not an option)?
>> i'd love a garden wedding.. :) it's sweet and romantic when people used to have their weddings on their own gardens...but alas, i don't have a garden! hahaahh! :P

17) Do you have feelings for someone right now?
>> yes...

18) Have you ever wished you could've had someone but you couldn't?
>> no...

19) Have you ever broken a heart?
>> yes...

20) Would you ever fight somebody over your significant other?
>> yEs

21) Is there anything you want to say to your ex?
>> just thank you..
:) thank you for letting me go..because if it
weren't for that...i wouldn't be in a much happier
state than i am now...and i forgive u... :) i hope u forgive me too..

i'm not tagging anyone....haha! i feel so lazy to do it actually... :P


i love this photo:

haha! it's like i'm the yellow one and my boyfriend's the green one...soooo freakingly cute!:P


Well, since nothing much is happening lately, ponder on this instead guys:

"there is a drop of madness in love...but there is a drop of reason in every madness.."

i love you all ... :)


Thursday, October 05, 2006

I'm Back Bitches!!!!

Waaaaaahh!! It feels so good to be back! After a 2 week long hiatus! Blame it on that dreaded dial up connection that I had to endure! Grrrr! Not only was it super duper slow….everytime I try to log on blogger it always ends up with “page cannot be found”. It bummed me to hell!!! Arrrgghhh!!! Ok, breath….ok, thank you for listening to my tirades now let’s move on to something better… J

Men are from mars, women are from Venus

In my previous post, alternati gave me a comment saying men are from mars and women are from Venus. Just yesterday, my friend gave me a book entitled…guess what? Yup, “Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus”. Imagine my surprise with that. I mean, why could he possibly give me a book such as this? Hahaha…he must be sending hints that I should try to understand what goes into men’s thinking…now that’s a laugh. Last night I started reading a few pages of it ( I’m still in the 31st page! Hahaha! A pathetic attempt on reading…yes I know) and I must admit that I find my self nodding in agreement with what the author is saying. Let me quote some parts of which really made me think over:

“Men mistakenly expect women to think, communicate and react the way men do; women mistakenly expect men to feel, communicate and respond the way women do.”

“Falling in love is always magical. It feels eternal, as if love will last forever. We naively believe that somehow we are exempt from the problems our parents had, free from the odds that love will die, assured that it is meant to be and that we are destined to live happily ever after.”

“The most frequently expressed complaint women have about men is that men don’t listen; the most frequently expressed complaint men have about women is that women are always trying to change them.”

I guess I don’t have to explain why those made me think over the differences between men and women. They are self-explanatory don’t you think?

Moving on…

During that 2week long of having to live up with a super slow dial-up connection, I found myself poring over J.K Rowling’s Harry Potter books 5 and 6. And I’m so excited over the 7th and last book. I keep having dreams of Hogwarts and Harry and the gang! Hahah! Talk about lunatic huh? I don’t know…I even find myself shouting “Cruciatus!”, “Protego”, or “Wingardium Leviosa”…hahah! Ok, I know, I sound freaky…so bear with it! :P

I really love Severus Snape! I don’t care if many people hate him, or loathe him to death; I really, really love Snape!! Hahah! He’s the villain that I absolutely love! I really hate Draco though, weird huh? Oh, and though I hate Voldemort too, I heart Ralph Fiennes. Hahah!

I wonder when Harry Potter Book 7 will come out.



There are free downloadable e-books of Harry Potter on the net though, if you guys would like to try, check out www.ebookstation.co.nr they have really nice e-books ranging from a variety of well-know authors of fiction novels like, John Grisham, Sidney Sheldon, Mario Puzo, J.K Rowling, and lots more…. (shameless plugging!)

A cute hate letter… J

And so, because I was bored to death last week, my friend forwarded me this cute little hate letter which I really find smartly-written.

Read this "HATE letter". It is so funny and creative.
This is a loveletter from a boy to a girl....However,
the girl's father does not like him and wants them to
stop their relationship......and so....the boy wrote
this letter to the girl....... He knows that the
girl's father will definitely read this letter

1 "The great love that I have for you

2 is gone, and I find my dislike for you

3 grows every day. When I see you,

4 I do not even like your face;

5 the one thing that I want to do is to

6 look at other girls. I never wanted to

7 marry you. Our last conversation

8 was very boring and has not

9 made me look forward to seeing you again.

10 You think only of yourself.

11 If we were married, I know that I would find

12 life very difficult, and I would have no

13 pleasure in living with you. I have a heart

14 to give, but it is not something that

15 I want to give to you. No one is more

16 foolish and selfish than you, and you are not

17 able to care for me and help me.

18 I sincerely want you to understand that

19 I speak the truth. You will do me a favor

20 if you think this is the end. Do not try

21 to answer this. Your letters are full of

22 things that do not interest me. You have no

23 true love for me. Good-bye! Believe me,

24 I do not care for you. Please do not think that

25 I am still your boyfriend."

So bad!! However, before handing over the letter to

he girl....the boy told the girl to "READ BETWEEN THE

LINES", meaning-only to read 1.3.5.7.9.11.13 (Odd

Nos.)

So.. please try reading it again! It's so smart & sweet....

Is it that obvious that I’m bored to death?? haha



Tuesday, September 26, 2006
I AGREE!!!!


1. When a girl says she's sad, but she isn't

crying, it means she's crying in her heart.



2. When she ignores you after you've done

something wrong, it's best to give her some

time to cool down before touching her heart with

an apology.



3. Never tell the girl you REALLY like about

your "crush" on another girl just to get her

jealous, it'll only give her the impression that

you're not interested.



4. A girl can't find anything to hate about the

guy she loves (which is why it is so hard for

her to 'get over him' after the relationship's

over.)



5. If a girl loves a guy, he will always be on

her mind every minute of the day, even though

she flirts with other guys.



6. When the guy she likes smiles and stares

deep into her eyes, she will melt.



7. If you really like a girl, tell her, don't

hesitate, she might even feel the same way.

But if it's just an infactuation, DON'T.



8. A girl likes to hear compliments, but usually

is not sure how to react to them.



9. When a particular guy flirts with a girl very

often, a girl would start thinking the guy likes

her. So if you treat a girl just as a friend, go

easy on the smiles and stare ok?



10. If you don't like a girl who likes you, break

it to her gently.



11. If a girl starts avoiding you after you

reject her, leave her alone for a while. If you

still treat her as a friend, talk to her.



12. Girls enjoy talking about what they feel.

Music, poetry, drawings and writing are ways

of expressing themselves (which explains why

most girls like writing journals)



13. Never tell a girl that she is useless in any way.



14. Girls might sound uninterested when you ask

her to be your girlfriend, it's their way of

playing hard to get, she doesn't want to seem

too available. So don't give up.



15. Being too serious can turn a girl off.



16. When the guy she likes calls her for the

first time, the girl may act uninterested during

the call. But as soon as the phone is back on

the hook, she will whoop with joy and

immediately start telephoning her friends to

spread the news.



17. A smile means a lot to a girl.



18. If you like a girl, try making friends with

her first. Let her get to know you.



19. If a girl says she can't go out with you

because she has to study, leave.



20. But if she still calls you or expect a call

from you, stay.



21. Don't try to guess a girl's feelings. Ask her.



22. Hearing the words "I love you" is a great

reassurance to a girl that she is beautiful.



23. After a girl falls in love with a guy,

she'll wonder why she never noticed him before.



24. If you need tips on how to flirt with a girl,

read romance stories.



25. When class pictures come out, a girl

would first check who is standing next to her

crush before actually looking at herself.



26. A girl's ex-crush will always be in her

memory, but the guy she loves now stays in her heart.



27. Girls love having fun!



28. A simple 'Hi' can brighten a girl's day.



29. A girl's best friends usually know best

what she is feeling and going through.



30. Girls hate it when a guy pays attention to

them just to get close to their 'prettier' friend.



31. Most girls would wait for the guys to make

the first 'move', so guys DON'T hold back.



32. Love means devotion, caring and happiness to
a girl,

in that order.



33. Some girls care about looks, some care about
brains,

but ALL girls want a guy who will love and care
for them.



34. Girls want nothing more than to feel loved.



35. Don't wait too long to confess your true
feelings.

Girls might end up moving on.



>>>got this from friendster..haha! i so so agree with it...what do you guys think? :)


Thursday, September 14, 2006

I'll be waiting... :)


It’s been a while since I’ve updated this blog…been really busy and have not been in a chipper mood lately. I’ve been having so many problems just now. Yeah, we all do have problems, I’m not alone…

Does age matter when it comes to loving someone? Is it not enough that two people are in-love and happy about it? Is it not enough? Does age have to be a hindrance? Why do they think that just because I’m 19 I’m not old enough to be in a relationship? Why do they think that I’m not stable enough to stay in a long-term relationship? Why do they think that maturity comes with age? Can’t you be young and think maturely at the same time? And can’t you be old and yet still act childish and stupid? Is it wrong if I’m dating someone a decade and a year older than me? I know I don’t have to explain myself to anyone as to why I’m dating him, or as to why I love him… I don’t need a reason to, but some people just can’t understand.

I know all they mean for me is for my own good, and it’s either I embrace it or leave it. There’s no use in being stubborn though. When people say that all they want is just “for your own good”, it’s always a 99.9% possibility that it won’t favor you—but it will be good. You see, I’ve grown so tired of that “it’s for your own good” dialogue my parents always tell me, it’s like starting to become a cliché. But, I’m thankful for those times…I’ve really learned my way around life. Whether I like it or not, whether I bitch or cry, kick and scream, I just end up following them and it always turns out right.

It’s like this, you see guys, they are horrified by the fact that I’m dating someone who could pass as my older brother. They are horrified that moi, who just turned 19, could stomach to be with someone who is 30. So they tried to separate us. Is that fair? I mean, I’m not messing with their lives am I not? And what is wrong with dating someone older? How ‘bout Katie Holmes and Tom Cruise? I think it’s better to date someone older than you than someone younger. I wouldn’t want to be considered a “mama-san”. Eeeekkk…

But you know what? I think it’s ok to experience these kinds of problems. When you’re in a relationship, you can’t avoid it. And the most wonderful part of it is that we don’t consider this as an obstacle to our relationship, but rather a beautiful reminder of just how strong TRUE LOVE can be. We’ll just be here…waiting for the right moment…and hopefully, we can make it thru together. It’s not like the end of my life noh? Heheh! I’ve still got my friends to back me up and besides, I’m grateful that we started out as friends. He’ll always be there. And he’s the greatest guy I’ve ever loved.

Oh what the heck, the world has bigger problems and here I am bitching about stuff like these. Living without having to feel pain is a worthless life. I say worthless because one cannot be able to appreciate life in its complexity without having to go through all the hardships that one has to bear. Life becomes more meaningful because of pain. Because you may never appreciate love if you never felt being out of love. You may never really know the real value of happiness until you experience sadness. You may never learn to appreciate smiles without crying your tears. I’m glad I’m able to feel pain. I’m so glad I’m normal…and most of all, I’m happy to be living this kind of life I’m living now… it is a life which has reason. ..o ang drama ko na naman…haaaiii… :P

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I hope when i get married someday i get to make babies as cute as SURI and Shiloh...hahah! i'm weird...:P


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my friend forwarded me a bunch of quotes which are "supposedly" from Oprah.. i don't know if it is true but anyway, i really like it...and i feel like sharing it with you guys.. :)


--If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

--Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.

--Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

--Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.

--Slower is better.

--Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

--If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends".
A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle.

--If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

--Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

--The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

--Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

--Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

--Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.

--If something bothers you, speak up.

--Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.

--You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.

--Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has more education or in a better job.

--Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

--Never let a man define who you are.

--Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.

--A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

--All men are NOT dogs.

--You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two way street.

--You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage.
Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

--You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you. A relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals. Look for someone complimentary, not supplementary.

--Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

--Make him miss you sometimes. When a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.

--Never move into his mother's house.

--Never co-sign for a man.

--Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.

--Keep him in your radar but get to know others

>>> now, which of these quotes can you really relate to? let me know... :)